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♥Sunday, October 08, 2006

i'm tired of being disappointed. ah it just irks me that some people just don't give a damn. they can be so irresponsible, so "oblivious", so insensitive. so fake, so scary. i hate the fact that we're always the one who cant hide our emotions, who probably think too much, who have to worry ourselves sick with all the nitty gritty things that dont even cross other people's minds. i did try to think that maybe it's really our own fault, that we have to come across as whatever ugly creatures we appeared to be. lang a bit too strong here but i'm just too lazy to think. i dont know, i really dont know. i just feel so..mistaken and it's sickening that there's nothing i can do about the situation except to just let it go. i think i just saw the ugly side of quite a number of people recently and it's really really disgusting and gross. how can some people just be so rude, so mean, so insensitive? to me i think that my major flaw is what..too intolerant and too selfish? but even so, i do try to be nice to people, to try and maintain like at least a nice relationship with pple i dont really like? at the very least i think you shld have the face and skin to try and leave a nice impression of yourself as a person? as a friend, or whatever. is this like retribution or karma or smth. shld i not care so much..i dont know how to face those people anymore sigh. never read a book by its cover, oh how true is tt.

sigh i just feel like posting this la. i really don't care like if someone whom i'm talking about reads this..i mean. if you're reading this and you know or you feel that you're the person i'm talking about then oh freak, i'm really ashamed of you. have loads of things tt i want to tell you, i have so many evil thoughts about you. why do you have to be so..urgh forget it. i hate you. but if you're not then erm.. sigh i also got nth to say. i dont know what i want to achieve from blogging about this too. sigh..what a lousy way to end post-promos hols.

thanks anna and sy.

hannah

and so she said ♥ 7:08 PM;